im turning to blogger again
i really nid to
really lost

its 3am now
another day gone just like tat
i seriously sucks at time managment

my uncle jus pass away tis morning
and ruin all my plans
i knw nobody will knw tis will happen
just hate when i have event
and always have something pop out
and my brother jus discharged from hospital
afew days back so happening @_@
i cant slp well last night
told mum today, she said she oso cant slp
i thought it is the weather hot
but mum say maybe becos my uncle
tats so spooky can....!!!

tis wed which is tonight
i was suppose to have bbq wif happy 4 frens
we already plan to ton and do all stuff
but i cant really confirm i can turn up there
i really wish i can becos last yr i miss it
yeah last yr i miss the chalet i miss the fun
i dun wish to miss it this yr too
i will try my very best to be there =/

the funeral will end at sat
my father wants me to be there everyday!!!
i really dun understand why
i knw as a respect i mus go
but i have 2 jobs on hand
i dun knw wat to do
i knw family is impt to me
but in the situation now
im not very close wif them
and i cant help much there
not saying i wound't go
of cos i will be there
but hope they give me some time for work
i dun wan to give up on both job

the 2nd job is my mum boss offer
so i dun wish to disappoint them
and they gave me alot of own time
the cinema job is the one i found
and i said i can work so they hired me
they are not enough of manpower now
becos of the stupid moive so crowed everyday
i dun wan to give up on either one
trying my really best to balance it
i guess this is the time to test how far i can go =/

i still cant decide wat to do tml
morning work at mum place
then to funeral then to bbq?
or work then funeral?
i dun knw shd i go or stay
if in the past i wound't hasted to
choose and stay wif family
but y am i hasting now?

i know everything cannot be prefect
but i still wan achieve the best
im stuborn so dun nid ask me rest
dun nid ask me quit one job
give me a solution or ????

okies enough of all my crapping
there is alot i havent done
i didnt meet up wif xin and jas
i didnt meet up wif je pop frens
i didnt spend enough time wif
jie ting, jolene and gina
i didnt spend enough time
shopping wif sy
and of cos the BBQ wif H4F
argh!!!! 24hr is nt enough now
even sleep is not sufficient
SORRY GUYS i tied myself to work
haiz.......c u all next yr lols
the stupid show is till 31 dec =.=
pls grant me more time!!!!


I Need time
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while i'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience.

I really wanna start over again
I know you wanna be my salvation
The one that i can always depend.

I'll try to be strong
Believe me i'm trying to move on
It's complicated but understand me.

'cause the scars run so deep
It's been hard but i have to believe
Just have a little patience

Have a little patience
My heart is numb, has no feeling
So while i'm still healing
Just try and have a little patience

6 a.m.
The clock is ringing
I need to spend an hour snoozing
'Cause I don't think I'm gonna make it


I punch in
I'm still sleeping
Watch the clock,
But it's not moving
'Cause every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending


And I feel like
I'm living the worst day
Over and over again
And I feel like the summer is leaving again
I feel like
I'm living the worst day
I feel like you're gone
And every day is the worst day ever


Yesterday was the worst day ever
And tomorrow won't be better
It's history repeating (on and on)
Summer plans are gone forever
I traded them in for dishpan water
And every day is never ending
I need to work I'm always spending


it's so long
I can't go on
it's so long
I can't go on

SIMPLE PLAN - Worst Day Ever

another working and moody day
didnt really laugh alot at work
jus hope it faster end so i dun
nid face all those customers
tml working at another side
really quite tired of it
but at least im not wasting my life
working 2 jobs make me
learn how to juggle my time
time management is really impt
if not u cant get anything done
hope everything turns out well

christmas is coming!!!!
can i have lots of chocolate =s

好希望能淋一场雨
让自己清醒

BANGS!!!!! hahas
finally take a photo of myself wif BANGS!!
bet many ppl wan to knw too hahas
okies lets divert to my today unluckyness
it will be a long one so u can skip if u wan

today woke up at 9.40
and i was suppose to be at work at 10
lucky enough time for me
cos it is near so i guess i choose the right job =D
end work at 4 and short of $6 =s

when i was preparing to leave to my grandma hus
mum call and ask me go gombak to
open door for my father cos he forget take keys
and my elder bro is in sch and younger bro
already at my grandma hus
so i went back BUT my keys cant open!!!
fuck lors!!! tried to call locksmith and it cost $50
so drop the idea of it
then call my elder bro c if he can come bak
he said ok then i tired ask my younger bro to cab down
so he cab down and i sms my elder bro nt to come
ard 20 - 30 mins later, my father was still trying
and he keep asking if i use and open be4
like fuck lors!!! although i seldom go bak
but everytime i go bak oso use tat mahs
he doubt tat it the key for tat house =.=
and suddenly my father open it and
at tat very moment my younger bro appear
and i saw his expression was like wau lau!!! lols
but who to blame??? =/
the one who forget to take keys?
but nobody wants to forget rite
and wat if im the one who forget to tak?
and tat damm key work jus at the time he appear
i was like fuck lahs try so long cannot
sure my younger bro blame me
for making him come down for nothing
and when the door was open for jus few minutes
my mum called and scold
becos my elder bro was on the way back oso
c the damm door make all 3 of us
go all the way there when we r suppose
to be at my grandma hus eating dinner

this was not the end, there is a last incident
but im not goin to say it out here
all i can say is SUAY SUAY AND SUAY!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JOLENE BEK (:

我在你的心里是否还留一个位置
是没有人能够代替不能转移

tonight is sure a great night
but i didnt really let out all
the things i wanted to say
but i really dun knw how to
or i dun have the courage?
but i really enjoyed tonight
how i hope it never ends

wat i wanted to say was....?
my mind was occupied wif
WHAT IF?
what if we stop u in the first place?
what if we gave u enough advice?
what if i put in effort to stop u?
i know tis cant be blame on anyone
but still everytime i tink of it
i nid alot of energy to hold back the tears
im sure everyone can feel the saddness
and i know u r in pain more than us
nobody can turn back time
i only thing and we can do is being by ur side now
my hp will be 24/7 for u
im sure of tis, even if other ppl cant find me

i can cry wif u
i can give u a hug
i can make u simle
but i cant find him back for u

HAPPY 4 FRIENDS WILL BE WITH YOU THROUGH THIS (:

hello people im back....
currently working at cinema
the pay is low but still it is a easy job
at first was jus give out glasses for 3D movies
now im selling tickets, so troublesome
waiting for avatar to show
then i can give out glasses again
holidays are coming but i dun have freedom ler
cos of work =/
and becos of work im goin to neglect people again
im very sure of it becos i already done it =s
so dun ask me when free
jus let me know when u wan me to be free
becos i dun have any schedule for work

i dun knw wats wrong wif me
it seems tat i have lose the patient i use to have
and i cant torelate little things now
wats wrong have i change?
becos i dun wan the change
i wan to be wat i use to be
who is fine wif anything
but i guess is the enviroment
which is forcing the change =/
maybe im really sick of crying
tired of trying
im smiling but dying inside....

I HATE SCH
I HATE WORK
I HATE LIFE

Sweet Dream or A Beautiful Nightmare

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FARIS =D